i dragged jeffrey to the mall this evening, mostly to check out some dresses at F21 that i’d been eyeing via youtube clothing guru. zales was on the way. i usually pass by, eyeing the diamonds and wishing away. i’ve never been bold enough to actually go in and try something on. i feel bad for wasting their time. and i’m afraid of them disliking me for wasting their time and judging me for being so young and probably being not ready for marriage at all. which is not the case. i guess i am young, at least compared to what i used to prefer for age of marriage, but i am more than ready to spend the rest of my life with jeffrey and have everyone know it. anyway, i finally got the guts to run in and look. the saleswoman and salesman in the store were so nice; personable and extremely helpful. and they let me try on huge diamond rings. my nerves were for nothing.
warning: gooey stuff ahead
everyday, i fall more in love with jeffrey. i want to get married. i want to buy a house with him. i want to raise a family with him. i want to get all wrinkly and shrink with him until we are nothing but grumpy bags of bones. it’s all cheesy, but it’s so true. i love him more than i’ve loved anyone else, and i couldn’t ever love anyone the same way i love him. he’s everything i ever wanted in a man and everything i didn’t know i wanted. i mean, who knew i’d fall for some sappy romantic who writes poetry, sings, and is in a band? …psht who wouldn’t fall for him?